I HATE MYSELF FOR
...
Talk whatever i want
"Shoot" people who around me
Always saying wrong things
Talking without pass through my mind
Always speaking directly
Only know say "sorry" after my mistakes
Not try to stand on the people side to think
Always hide angry inside my heart
Easily feel sad
Have a feeling that this world is going to reach the end
Why not so realistic?
People always misunderstood my meaning
Not thinking the consequences completely
And tell me. What should i do now? Right now, i don't have any idea on the technique to survive in this world especially with talking skills, and with this kind of personality. Being myself? ?
When i will love myself for this kind of personality? Is time to change??...
Who can save me? (P/S: This world is reality, only me can save myself.)
SAD
we live not only for ourselves but we live also for the goodness of people around us...
ReplyDeleteyea,tats right,its good to have our own attitudes so tat those attitudes make us different from other people...
but we hav to filter these attitudes...we hav to throw away those attitudes which will cause sadness to people...
try to think if we drop the attitude then people around us will change their view on us and begin to like us and treat us good...
tat wil b nice...
a true story here:
last time im not as socialable as now...i don't joke...im emotional...
i only talk to people when i felt like...
tat makes me feel that im cool...
but tat indeed make no people dare to approach n make freinds with me...
i think hard for that...
lastly transfromation is the thing i chose to...i finally realize not hurting people means not hurting myself...
so now its good tat i hav friends to enjoy with...
i think u're doing ur best...
just try to think both sides...
u n others...=)
good luck...(^^.)
next time when u wanna "shoot", think 1st, then calm urself down...
ReplyDeleteu will never knw wat will come back on u after u have say it :)
SHeLYN: Wow! ur saying was right, and reasonable. U make me realize new rules - When u hurting other people, actually u hurting urself. I always has this kind of feeling, juz i always ignore it before. Flash back, is really not worth at all. I will try to change, thx :)
ReplyDeleteL: I think i was emotional also, "shoot" without thinking. Really, i don't even bother the consequences after shooting people...i think is time to change...:)