29 January, 2010

Finally i know wat i want!

After thinking about 1 week, i know what should i do and clear what i am going to do when study in this university.

Before that i was planning to participate in a relationship. Well then, i feel that i cannot do it due to many reasons. I can't give up my times on a relationship. Maybe i haven find my "destiny"...the true love, so no feeling to go in a relationship.

Before that, that girl friend give me chances to take a "trial relationship" with her. I was agree it. After that, i'm not feeling kinda wan to date with her well then she already said "trial". Thinking...thinking.....i found the answer---i dun like her anymore. That's the reason i din have any action to her. Additional i dun dare to give up many things and just go in that relationship.

Finally, i ask her to cancel the "trial" relationship. She agreed and said she just wan let me to know what i wan clearly. Firstly i heard this is swt...well, all i can say she is done well for this "test". I can freely as single and do what i want, no need consider so many things and give up things too.

My mom was right, saying that i'm not possible in a relationship in university due to studies. Yeah, is all rite. Maybe i will find my true love after few years, then at that time i may willing to give up something and in a relationship.

Just have a faith that---"When there is no more hope, most of human still never give up till the end!" (idea from "LEGION" 2010 movie)

24 January, 2010

Should i go in a relationship when studies?

Well, when i enter this university, i heard my senior said about "u need to find a girlfriend when in university, otherwise 80% that u will be single after ur studies"....

So, when i enter this Uni, i just care for studies first, the other thing like romance...i ignore it first. In the beginning there was a girl tell me she like me, but somehow in any instance i reject her, cause i jux wanna focus on studies. I kindly sad that to reject her...but there's no way i have to selfish. I am the kind of person who cannot focus on two things...(is terrible, when i step in the social life, i dun know how to find my destiny and maybe dun know how to manage...T_T)

After 1 sem, i got another feeling and like a girl. Well then, she reject me of cox. She said that she dun want step in any relationship and always be a busy girl. Ok then. After few semester, she said the reason why she reject me was my “中气不足”。I just started to wonder that's might be my weakness. I believe most of girl dun like the "ruan mian mian" type of man.
Haiz...There gonna be one more trouble...i have to find a way to cover up this weakness or repair it instead keep on this "characteristics". I wonder in the future i may not find a girl who like my this "characteristics". Love is complicated. When two people love each other, there's a piece of cake, not need so much hardwork then u can enter the relationship.

At this circumstances, i just keep on single life till the Uni's life end. Of course, if my destiny show up, i won't run away anymore. Besides, i'm not a so good-looking person, and underweight. There might be a reason of 80% to be a single. Haiz...love, love, love.