煎熬

【煎熬】  - 【主唱：李佳薇】

早知道 你只是飞鸟
拥抱后 手中只剩下 羽毛
当初你又何必浪费
那么多咖啡和玫瑰 来打扰

我想要 安静地思考
天平上 让爱恨不再 动摇
一想你就平衡不了
我关灯还是关不掉 这风暴

心一跳 爱就开始煎熬
每一分 每一秒
火在烧 烧成灰有多好
叫思念 不要吵
我相信我已经快要
快要把你忘掉
跟寂寞 再和好

得不到 也不要乞讨
怎么做 不需要别人 转告
在陷得太深的海底
我也只剩下我自己 能依靠

心一跳 爱就开始煎熬
每一分 每一秒
火在烧 烧成灰有多好
叫思念 不要吵
我相信我已经快要
快要把你忘掉
跟寂寞  再和好
我相信我已经快要
是真的我快要
快要可以微笑 去面对
下一个 拥抱

评论：虽然这支MTV是三级片+又恶心，肮脏的画面，加上主唱者又唱得很高音，但要带出的内容是很有意思的。不管怎样，失恋或是什么的，只要还活着，不都好吗？ 人还是要学会看开。

暧昧

暧昧让人受尽委屈 找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进 何时该放弃
连遗憾都没有勇气

暧昧犹如以上的歌词 -
没错，暧昧的时光，换个角度想，的确是很快乐，模糊的幸福。
其实，它让人陷于半天吊的状态，优柔寡断的爱情。

这让我联想到-
友达以上，恋人未满，甜蜜心烦，隐约混乱。。。
如果双方都喜欢彼此，都对彼此有感觉，那么这将会实现-
如果三个字，别犹豫这么久， 只要你说出口，你就能拥有我。
但如不是那样，那么这将不会出现，反而被拒绝。

有些异性朋友会肯单独出来与你约会，并不代表他/她喜欢着你。
或许他/她只对你有些些好感，把自己当成好朋友看待。
所以啊，一旦表白，异性就会很成熟化的拒绝你，比方说：
还有更好的再等待你/我不够好，你应该得到更好的/我们只当好朋友，好吗？
我们俩不适合/我现在不想谈恋爱

非成熟化的拒绝如：
我不喜欢你/我们是不可能的/你太丑/你的个性我不喜欢/你不富有。。。

我想为什么会有人想活在爱情的泡影里，因为一向前走，可能会以失败收场，而不是
名正言顺地谈一场正经的恋爱。如果失败，他们得处理受伤的心灵，
让自己想清楚，平衡自己的心理。

其实爱情最容易达成的是，一见钟情。虽然如此，还是得花时间去了解彼此的个性，让自己的
爱情路更长久。另一种，就是用细心，贴心打动对方的心，时时刻刻守候在对方的身旁。除非对方
第一眼见到你就对你反感，机会也不给你，那么这招可说是无效。

个人认为，爱情看似简单，就你爱我，我爱你。（是不是真的爱彼此？）
其实它也可以很复杂，就看用什么方法去应付。

我的缘份或许犹如算命师所言，不会那么早降临在我身上。现在的我，唯有让自己
更有成就感，养活自己，爱惜自己。连自己都无法养活，以后要怎么对另一半呢？

Animal @Facebook status

If animals have Facebook,
these are most likely to be their Status Updates :

Cockroach : Managed to skip from some one’s foot step.. Man, I lead a dangerous lifestyle.

Cow : Huh! They are touching my breast again..what they think I am! Bitch?

Mosquito : I am HIV positive this is all due to wrong sucking !!!

Chicken : If tomorrow I am not updating my status, means I am being served at KFC.
Love you all.....

Octopus : I have just refilled my ink..horray!!

Cow : Friends, don’t go out, hari raya korban holiday is coming

Pig writes a comment on Goat’s status : “Luckily I am haram”
4 likes.

Cow replies :“Don’t you remember that after hari raya korban is the Chinese new year..?
211 likes.

[*Information from Facebook]

Too Confident

I am going to tell my story here which was happened on last week, at my hometown.

At the day I went back to KL, I was asking my first younger brother to fetch me to bus stand BP. Due to car M was no enough fuel, I asked him to use car P (Just fueled) to fetch me. After that, we were departed to bus stand. I asked my brother to drive, I sit beside of him.

At the middle of the road, my younger brother told me that:
Brother: "Actually I still in P tag, but this car do not have P sticker. Well, never mind, normally cop would not care about me and let me pass by."
Me: "Is it? Are you sure? "
Brother: "Normally, they looked me old ma..."
Me: "Ok, then fine."

Early in the morning, cops so hardworking and established the road block at the road X. Well, we've stopped by the cops. The cop asked my brother to show his IC, license. Then, the cop asked "Where is the P sticker?" (We silent...) "Stop at that side (with finger point to the road side)". (My decision was wrong)

One of the cops came to us, and asked whether want saman (fine) or not. My brother directly said "No". Next, he asked us sit back to the car, and asked me to drive. However, he was holding my brother's IC & licenses. I asked him "What we are going to do?" The cop asked me to get down the car and directed me to the small hut, where another officer record the fine.

I asked the officer how much I needed to pay for fine. He replied me around RM100. However, if pay early can get discount. (*The P sticker can cause RM100 fine? Unbelievable!) Then I said to him just wrote down the records. After that, my brother was get down from car and signed the fine.

Maybe my brother's look alike gangster (Golden hair, a bit long hair with pattern and an earring) I would say so because the cops checked the whole car's content and even checked my travel bag.

In conclusion, I told him that next time better follow the rules and do not be so confident. Tell me early if still in P license then I would not ask him to drive. I added "Your look is not old, is gangster look!"
       

Internship Life

Currently I am undergo Internship at IT company, software house. Somewhere in Kuala Lumpur.

Many people know that internship's salary is so low...yes. Mine just five hundred. Living in KL is quite high expense, and sometimes need to hang out with friends. If no control the money, it will be very fast run out. Bloody pocket almost appear. Luckily I living with my big brother, house rent already less from my personal budget.

Always pick up phone in office

I was working two months already. Work as IT executives, who always contact with customer, solve customer problem with the system, and support anything that we can support in company. Sometimes will be scolded by customer also due to some misunderstanding happens. I not satisfied with my performance for this two months. I weak in memorize KL road (mostly I depend GPS, then now less use already), no enough experience to negotiate with customer, slow response. No enough training, and still need to take time  to study different system, understand the flow. The good thing is I not need to touch programming. Well, the job is easy, but need courage, brave and be straight, yes is yes, no is no.

Report again -_-

Well, I still have to write the proposal and final report to pass the internship course. It is easier if compare to final year project. It will be more difficult after internship was ended. Where will I go for?

By the way, I was owing my big brother on big sum of money. Now almost clean up my debt on him already. Every month still have to pay insurance fees to him. Yes, my brother work as insurance. Just reach KL, then he and his girlfriend keep telling me on how good on working as insurance, many benefits and blah blah blah. Yeah, it is really have many benefit. However, every job is not that easy. Direct sales' friends also introduce me can work as direct sales also. Suddenly, I felt myself was old enough to listen to those things.

I think I will continue to work as IT related jobs first.

Lastly, internship is tire.  

Glad You Came - The Wanted

The Wanted New Album release! 
Just feels like this song nice as "Heart Vacancy"~~
The Wanted - Glad You Came Music Video 
 

The sun goes down
The stars come out
And all that counts
Is here and now
My universe will never be the same
I'm glad you came

You cast a spell on me, spell on me
You hit me like the sky fell on me, fell on me
And I decided you look well on me, well on me
So let's go somewhere no-one else can see, you and me

Turn the lights out now
Now I'll take you by the hand
Hand you another drink
Drink it if you can
Can you spend a little time,
Time is slipping away from us so stay,
Stay with me I can make,
Make you glad you came

The sun goes down
The stars come out
And all that counts
Is here and now
My universe will never be the same
I'm glad you came
I'm glad you came

You cast a spell on me, spell on me
You hit me like the sky fell on me, fell on me

And I decided you look well on me, well on me
So let's go somewhere no-one else can see, you and me

Turn the lights out now
Now I'll take you by the hand
Hand you another drink
Drink it if you can
Can you spend a little time,
Time is slipping away from us so stay,
Stay with me I can make,
Make you glad you came

The sun goes down
The stars come out
And all that counts
Is here and now
My universe will never be the same
I'm glad you came
I'm glad you came

I'm glad you came
So glad you came
I'm glad you came
I'm glad you came

The sun goes down
The stars come out
And all that counts
Is here and now
My universe will never be the same
I'm glad you came
I'm glad you came

QR Code

QR Code

QR code is another type of bar-code. Nowadays, this code is started to be used commonly. This code is hiding information that we need to transfer. More information more complicated QR code design. Just knew this again at my workplace few days before. Surprisingly, the QR code reader software available on my semi-smartphone, Nokia 5800 XM, which Symbian S60V5. I'm so excited my 5800 phone can read the QR code also by using the camera function! ^_^  

Final Fantasy

I was knew Final Fantasy series by an amazing Music Video, that's the starting point of me to love the Final Fantasy series. My journey of Final Fantasy is started as below...

Still remember year 1999 or 2000? That moment many English hot music was out and the famous song like Vengaboys-We Liked to Party, Boom Boom Boom Boom, Kiss, and other featuring songs Drive Me Crazy, This is How We Do It and so on, many dance hit songs! My neighbor was borrowed the MTV album to me, VCD at that moment, then I started to enjoy the music videos. At first, I thought it was original music videos, but is not. The whole package is playing the 3D CG animation of beautiful characters, a girl with light blue shirt, a guy with a scar on his face, and the blade was danced with their action..and the scene of dance in the party, a girl teach a guy to dance with those dance musics.

Wow! It is pretty amazing that for me to watch this kind of video, I absolutely attracted by it! Yeah, that was Final Fantasy VIII, out on Playstation and PC version. My girl classmate told me it was Famous game Final Fantasy series, that is the latest one for that moment. Soon, I started related myself with Final Fantasy Stuff.

When I was Form 1, I started to play Final Fantasy IX. That moment I only have PC in my house. Final Fantasy IX is out on Playstation only. To be surprised, that moment an emulator out on PC- called Connectic Virtual Game Station (CVGS), which can play most Playstation games. So, I spent RM40 for the Final Fantasy IX PC version (which based on CVGS Emulator, 5 CDs). Then I was enjoyed the games. Sadly, when at Disk 2, the game was stuck! Black screen after a scene. I still remember is sandstorm scene. After that I cannot play at all! I even search the solution online, ask friends, there is no a solution for this. RM40 wasted! T_T Then, I temporary give up for FFIX.

After a year or something, I purchased FFVIII PC version to play in my PC. Wow! The starting CG Movie is pretty amazing, high graphic, so real! When it is high definition, it stuck in the beginning of the movie CG. I need to change setting in order to let the CG movie can run successfully and can play this game. This is my first time history. Guess what? When I played on CD-3, two school battles each other and suddenly a loud "Crack" sound I heard. What the hell is going on? Walao!! My CD-3 was break into 2 pieces inside CD-ROM 52X. I need to use screw driver to take out the CD-ROM and shake it until all the pieces of CD-3 was cleared out from the CD-ROM. Oh yeah, the price for the FFVIII same, RM40, 5 CDs. I almost break to half after all. My friend had borrowed me the FFVIII PS version Japanese version. I manage to play finish Disk1. After that, the CVGS cannot continue Disk2. That's the reason I buy the PC version.

After two years, I was found out the new Playstation Emulator, called ePSXe to play any PS game, even more 3D graphic! So I do some research on it then I borrowed the FFIX PS Version from friend and burn as my copy. Then I started to play it. Yup, this time I was success to finish the FFIX games on my PC. The FFIX game is quite tough to play actually. Next, I borrowed FFVIII PS Version from another friend as my copy, and same thing I finish the games. Oh yeah, I was complete this game 3 times. I thought I was crazy. This year, I was asking one of the house mate about FFVIII, I thought I was win, but I lose. He was complete it 8 times. So scary movie!

When I was Form 6, I started to collect fund and buy the Playstation 2. Yeah, it is for the purpose to play FFX, FFX-2, and FFXII. I was completing the games finally. The FFX ending is sad, with the sad music. I was touching. FFX-2 the ending depends on player. It has pretty ending if player reach the criteria to show pretty ending. The FFXII is normal. But the battle system is turn out to be special, movable when fighting.

When in university, I was played back the Final Fantasy VII PS version. The download version has problem, so I invest again on FFVII, 3CDs. Then using ePSXe Emulator to play. Then, the last few years we sure had notice the Final Fantasy VII Advent Children movie, that shows how famous of Final Fantasy. The previous Final Fantasy movie, I do not like it at all, sucks. FFVII-Dierge of Cerberus the movie available also. Recently just finish playing the FFVII-Dierge of Cerberus PS2. I think Final Fantasy series is better keep follow its famous RPG style. 

In conclusion, I like most of the Final Fantasy series, the stories, the characters, guardian forces, chocobos and the kupo! The most big attraction is when play the games, the CG animation will be played in order to continue the story. This is the specialty of FF. In the future, I think I will get a PS3 in order to play Final Fantasy XIII, though I was finish watching the gameplay of FFXIII. Then, I hope Square Enix will develop movie of FFVIII, FFIX or either series. Do not just focus on Final Fantasy VII. Boring already.... 

     

Gossip

Do human nature is always like to gossip? I do not know why when somebody is not around me, then the gossip on that person or people will be the chatting content.

For example, a group of friend include me having dinner at restaurant. Then all of us/one of us will start to chat about XX's content. Mostly is feel any unsatisfied with, angry with, dislike and so on. When feel satisfied with that person, the one not going to be discussed mostly. People remember bad things huh...Then whole content focus on how the person behave like idiot/fish/tortoise/insect/cockroach/dragon/chicken etc.....

The above picture makes me think about my brother's shirt picture: "I wasn't cheating, I'm just checking my answer!"

Sometimes, me also start to gossip too. Then some friends will give common opinion also to that gossip, and begin discussion. Even the imitation on the person. As we gossip on other people, they might gossip back on us while we are not around, right?

In another word, we might say we are no gossip, we just discuss the specialty of that person! XD This is awesome/fantastic to substitute this saying.

Gossip is not a good behavior. However, many people do. For what? Interesting life? >.< I hope I could escape the gossip content from now on.

Face wash + "Electric"

Last two months, I had went to my neighborhood's house for face wash.

My mom said the young auntie (Beautician) is famous at my resident's area. Many guy's face were recovered a lot compared with the not yet washed face. However, that cost quite high to do once face wash.

During the face wash moment, she had played the music ding-dang-ding-dang, music box kind (who dislike by a blogger - Danny, right? ;P) Face wash process goes on like normally what I experienced before. Put cream, massage face, dig out the acne, dirty things. Suddenly, I heard a zh-zh-zh sound and slowly near my ears. She said: "Now I am going to use electric to shock your face, it gonna will be very pain. Take care." She took the electric pen (I don't know what should I called that, forget to ask her the appropriate name) and started to shock my whole face. Indeed, my face has many acnes. No wonder use her ultimate skill to attack my face.

Wa~~~~~~~~~~~~~Very~~~~~~~~~~~~Pain!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I always be proud of being so strong during the process of dig out the acne(small) from my face. This kind of shock, despite no so strong shock, my whole face felt paralyzed during and after. The tear was surrounding my small white part of eyes. After done, she said: "This is good for your face as it kills the bacteria."  After that, she did SPA on my face. Wow...feeling so cool after all. Then, mask was the last process (if I no remember wrong).

The price is not that expensive, as compared to other facial center. After a month, I feel that my face was recovered a lot! That's good! Now, what I need to is sleep early as to keep my liver stay health, and drink a lot of water. I always drink a lot of waters.

Anyone knows this kind of technology? Share with me if you do :)

Name card

It will be great if I own a name card for myself.

Yesterday, I had been receiving the name card from the tutor of my MDeC course. When receive name card from someone, we need to have correct/appropriate response. So, what kind of response we need to act?

"Cheh, it just so so only..." - *This is totally rude 
Just directly keep the name card without any response. *This is average  + little rude
"Walao!! this is very awesome!!" *This is too hyperbole
"Mine is famous than you." *This is too arrogant.

What we need to say actually?

We just need to speak the name on name card, not very loudly, to do the confirmation. "Oh...Na-ta-lie Port-man" Then, Natalie Portman will be very happy and feel proud of it. You just speak her name!

(I'm feel glad for what you did :) )

That's how important if we do the correct response on time. :) 

   

Anthony Neely's Autograph

Yesterday, Anthony Neely came to BP Mall [Shopping Mall], his autograph for every fans.

Credited to 木子李

Actually I did not plan to go there at first. Then, after thinking deeply and I made decision - to go there watch the spectacular view.  

Credited to Yeo.SC

Definitely, the place is really crowded. As he planned at here with fans at 2 p.m. He just arrived at 2.30 p.m. Besides, he is really handsome and well talented. I simply selected a location that I can view him clearly. His sang at live just same as the CD!! No different at all.

The moment he perform the songs.

He performed the songs -
1. Sorry That I Loved You (Personally Most Like 5/5)
2. Happy Armageddon [末日快乐]
3. Farewell's Hug [散场的拥抱] 

My Location...really crowded!

What I did at there yesterday was take photos and videos. So hot the place. Finally, I purchased his album at there with the discount price (RM35). Then, asked for the autograph and shake hand with him. I just can't believe what I did!!! It was just not like me at all, mostly I only view singer sing, then I just walk away. Maybe for my personal life's memorial......>.< Unexpected, my cousin (girl, married) bring her little girl to join this show also. She said she would like to purchase album at the time...so I...

The second original album I own in my life!

Indeed, this albums are thumbs up. :) 

Here is the video of his performance ~ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aRTYC22UYEA






 

Just 2 in Cinema

Just surprise I had two times to watch movie in cinema, two people only in whole cinema hall...>..<

First time watch was with a friend (guy), the movie name - [Shaolin]. Second time with a friend also (girl), the movie name - [The Green Hornet] - [The Green Lantern]. In additional, both movies are high rating, worth for us to watch.

Where can get this chance to watch movie just 2 people only? I went to same cinema two times (opened since April 2011）in same local shopping mall.

How is the feeling? Sure, the feeling is very good. The cinema hall just play the movie for two people only.

Hopefully the cinema keep launch. Then, I will have the chance again to watch with only two people include me. >_<

The Liver

Why we need to care our liver? Is that so important?

Modern night life make us do not want to sleep early, night activities always exciting. For my case, since I entered University, I started to learn bad habit - late sleep (over 12am to sleep). I think the sign show up from my body is correct. My liver is totally "hot". If I do not take care on it, soon I get a lot of illness.

First sign I think is the pimples. My face was full of pimples, maybe it presents the liver condition. Next, I feel my whole body no feel so comfortable as before, feel weird. I am not think too much. It is the sign from my body. Liver alarm me "I too hot, please, let me cold, I going to dried up soon!!!"   After consult doctor, their advice and solution was sleep early, drink many water.

Many of us sleep lately, but do not show any sign yet, please do not so happy about that. Get our body healthy right now, and do more exercise.  

I need Money!!

Long time no visit here already...quite miss my blog lol 

For upcoming months, I need a lot of money! For my all living expenses.
House rent, fees, favorites and so on.
Finally still have to work as part time before my internship start.

 

Virgin Road

Virgin Road - Ayumi Hamasaki 

ねえ今まで ちゃんと言えずにいた 
言叶がある この命をありがとう
自分を大事に出来なかった あの日
伤ついたのは 私なんかじゃなかった
いつでも明るく振舞ってきた その横颜に
初めて涙...
现如今，还有些话我从未提起，感谢命运，
那时，并没有好好照顾自己，但受伤的，却并不是我
总是洋溢笑脸的你，那天，第一次看到泪水淌过了你的脸庞

こんな私のことを爱し 守りたいと言ってくれる
人に出会いました これから二人共に歩き出します
どんな悲しみが袭っても どんな喜びに出会っても
どんな瞬间も分かち合い 生きていくと誓いました
对我说着，“永远爱你，一辈子守护着你”
相识相知，从此我们一路走来
无论悲伤袭来，还是喜悦相伴
我都发誓，这辈子每分每秒都会和你在一起

ねえこれから 起きていく全てにも mm...
感谢していくよ これからもずっとありがとう
言い争ったままで 泣いて叫んだり
家を飞び出してきた 夜もあったね
それでも结局 いつでも谁よりも
理解してきてくれたこと...
从今以后，我呼吸的每分每秒，
我都会抱着感激的心情，从今开始，将一直感激下去
即使有争吵，即使有哭闹，
即使还有离开家的夜晚
即便如此，你还是那个无可替代的最理解我的人

あなたがいつかのその昔 出会い爱したあの人と
私が爱している人は どこか似ているような気がします
很久以前，你爱着的那个人
和我深爱着的人，总感觉有着某种羁绊

あなたがいつかのその昔 出会い爱したあの人と
私が爱している人は どこか似ているような気がします
很久以前，你爱着的那个人
和我深爱着的人，总感觉有着某种羁绊

たとえばふとした仕草に どこか面影感じる
そこに気付いたとき涙が ひとつ頬を伝いました...
一想到，将会在何处偶遇未曾料到的事情，
泪水便不自觉的滑下了脸庞


ねえ今まで ちゃんと言えずにいた 
言叶がある この命をありがとう
现如今，还有些话我从未提起，感谢命运 

This music I very like, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x1ar1t34Reg bring you to watch and listen this music. The center part have the wedding melody, the keep increasing tempo...
Lyric is touching anyway~

Itchy Hand

Sometimes, as human, our hands are itchy. So, how to solve this problem? Just simply using ailment to treat it and stop the itchy feels. For example, mosquito's bites.

Some itchy hand illness cannot be cured. Like the hand need to touch something, then will feel comfortable. For example, in shopping center, some people would like to touch the display things then will feel good (actually just for reason of curiosity) even there has written "Please do not touch, thank you." Why need to touch? Do not touch cannot ka?

Some itchy hand action might lead to big problem. For example, I see a door which is beautiful. Then, I try to open it with my hand. Suddenly, the door broken. If the house owner saw me, I have to pay what I done, just in case for responsibility.  
Why people's hand will feel "itchy"? Curious on touching there touching here. When the bad consequences was met, just run away huh? Or open one eye and close one eye?

I feel that when hand feel itchy, try to stop/control the action that going to be happened by thinking on other things, to separate the self attention. Do not make yourself lost anyway...  

Choc Cheese Berries - [SR]

New release cake - Choc Cheese Berries!! (From Secret Recipe Cafe & Bistro Sdn. Bhd.)

The cake is yummy! I feels like have three flavor come within. Raspberry, Cheeze Choc, and Chocolate Cheese. So, absolutely yummy! Love <3
 
Let's see the layer of the cake, and enjoy the pictures >_<

Picture edited & Taken from Secret Recipe

Choc Cheese Berries

Enjoy sunset after the cake or during cake :P